God, who am I? - Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
"God, who am I?"
"God, who am I?"
"Writing, then, was a substitute for myself: if you don't love me, love my writing & love me for my writing. It is also much more: a way of ordering and reordering the chaos of experience."
"Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those."
"I wonder why I don't go to bed and go to sleep. But then it would be tomorrow, so I decide that no matter how tired, no matter how incoherent I am, I can skip on hour more of sleep and live."
"I like people too much or not at all. I've got to go down deep, to fall into people, to really know them."
"let me live, love, and say it well in good sentences"